3:32 AM THOUGHTS
SOMEDAYS IN LIFE
ARE SO, LIKE SO MUCH HAPPENS EVERY SINGLE DAY AND ON MOST OF THE DAYS I WANT TO
MOVE OUT TO FIND PEACE BUT DESPITE BEING SURROUNDED BY THE MOST PEACEFUL
ENVIRONMENT I SUFFERED FROM THAT UNWANTED NOISE THAT KEEPS RUINING THAT I
BECOME SO COMFORTABLE IN MY PAIN THAT IT BECOMES MY WAY TO FIT. IT WAS OR IS A JOURNEY
OR DAY WHERE I BECOME SO STUBBORN AND DEALT WITH THINGS IN MY OWN WAY THAT I BLATANTLY
CUT OFF RELATIONSHIPS, SOMETIMES ITS HOURS OF SILENCE WITH CLAMOUR OF THOUGHTS
AND SOMETIME A FEELING OF SENSE OF BELONGING, ACCEPTANCE, AND AFFECTION FROM
AND TOWARDS FELLOW SAPIENS.
PEOPLE STILL SAY
THAT I HOLD THINGS BUT IN THESE YEARS I TRIED MY LEVEL BEST TO BE STILL AND
ACCEPT THE THINGS AS THEY ARE. THERE ARE SOMEDAYS, AND SOME NIGHTS WHERE I JUST
WANT TO SCREAM AND WISH COULD BE INVISIBLE, WISH COULD DO ALL THE ADVENTURE AND
NOT GROW UP BECAUSE GROWING UP SO FAST IS SO SCARY BECAUSE A LOT OF MY WAY,
SOME RESPONSIBILITIES, A LOT OF SELF – EXPLORATION, LOT OF SELF EXPRESS AND
SOME FEARS AND THAN FROM NOWHERE LIFE’S BOTTOM LINE HITS YOU TO REALITY THAT THERE
IS SO MUCH THAT NO ONE KNOWS AND THERE IS SOME THAT EVERYONE KNOWS, IT FEELS
LIKE TO WRITE, TAKE OUT TIME FOR THINGS FOR THE CONNECTION OF THIS PHASE AND TO
EMBRACE THIS PHASE OF IDENTITY TO
PROGRESS.
