IT WAS NOT TODAY BUT FOR SO MANY YEARS, EVERY TIME I AM TRYING SOMETHING NEW THE EXCITEMENT DOES NOT LAST LONG. THE BURDEN OF THE PAST WAS DEEPLY ENGRAVED THAT NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRIED TO OPEN MY HEART TO SOMETHING NEW OR TO SOME NEW PEOPLE BUT END UP FEELING VULNERABLE, SUPPRESSING PAIN AND A DESIRE TO BE IN A SAFE SPACE.
TO SOME PEOPLE I 'M DOING WELL AND TO MANY MY CHOICES DISAPPOINT. I TRY TO REMAIN STRONG ENOUGH BUT SOME DAYS I BECOME ANXIOUS, WORRYING ABOUT THINGS, ANALYSING SITUATIONS, AND KEEP BLAMING MYSELF FOR NO REASON THEN SOMEHOW I GATHER MY PEACE, THAT TODAY THINGS ARE NOT MAKING SENSE, BUT THOSE RANDOM PRIVILEGE, ACT OF KINDNESS TO OTHERS GAVE ME MY PEACE BACK.
