IT WAS NOT TODAY BUT FOR SO MANY YEARS, EVERY TIME I AM TRYING SOMETHING NEW THE EXCITEMENT DOES NOT LAST LONG. THE BURDEN OF THE PAST WAS DEEPLY ENGRAVED THAT NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRIED TO OPEN MY HEART TO SOMETHING NEW OR TO SOME NEW PEOPLE BUT END UP FEELING VULNERABLE, SUPPRESSING PAIN AND A DESIRE TO BE IN A SAFE SPACE.
TO SOME PEOPLE I 'M DOING WELL AND TO MANY MY CHOICES DISAPPOINT. I TRY TO REMAIN STRONG ENOUGH BUT SOME DAYS I BECOME ANXIOUS, WORRYING ABOUT THINGS, ANALYSING SITUATIONS, AND KEEP BLAMING MYSELF FOR NO REASON THEN SOMEHOW I GATHER MY PEACE, THAT TODAY THINGS ARE NOT MAKING SENSE, BUT THOSE RANDOM PRIVILEGE, ACT OF KINDNESS TO OTHERS GAVE ME MY PEACE BACK.
It's just a matter of time and you will get your safe space and peace altogether. AMEN
ReplyDeleteAll the things which are happening will align one day and will make you realise that the life you have been through... Were worth to live to emerge as a best human for future.
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